Your kids inherit your nervous system patterns. Learning this broke my heart once I realized that I had my daughter before I did any healing work on myself. Her birth was the catalyst for my entire awakening, and now that she's almost 6… it's been 6 of the hardest, deepest, most brutal, challenging and beautiful years of my life… and I see my old subconscious patterns being mirrored in her. For a season of my life, I blamed myself for this. I felt guilty for having my son 3 years into my healing journey… like I'd "set him up for success" while dealing my firstborn a really shitty, difficult hand.

I made peace with this through the realization that her soul chose me… and that particular time… to come into this 3D world. The patterning and mirroring and healing work is as much a part of her journey as it is mine, and I'm grateful to be here along this journey with her. And after the depths I've been to - and what she's seen me walk through and overcome - I no longer doubt in the timing or the orchestration of any of it.

That being said, it can still throw me for a loop when I see my old identity patterns illuminated through her.

We're a week out from kindergarten starting, and my parents texted me to see if my daughter wanted to have a sleepover tonight. They have the sweetest relationship, and see each other almost daily.

With zero hesitation, my daughter replied: "YES! Even if I have to get stabbed in the head and spend the day in the hospital afterwards I WANT TO GO!!!" - from a state of PURE EXCITEMENT.

Like…

What the fuck?

I assured her that wouldn't have to happen… that she was allowed to just go over and have fun and then come home tomorrow and play here… and she happily skipped off to finish her grapes and play in the basement with her 2-year-old brother.

Meanwhile, I sat here a little stunned, like… what is this mirroring, and why?

Then it hit me.

She was mirroring the pattern of expecting something bad to happen after something good arrives.

This can be a huge reason why we don't allow good things in… because we expect the collapse. We've learned to stop trusting that things get to remain good… to stay good… because something has to fall apart in order for something good to come in. We constantly wait for the other shoe to drop, and have a difficult time staying in the identity and the belief that everything is always working out for us. As much as we consciously want to believe it… there's a part of us that questions… "is it really possible?"

For a minute, I was like… "What is this trying to teach me?"

Another old-identity pattern… having the belief that there's always more learning to do… always more healing to move through… always more work to be done…

But I caught it.

At this point, we know that everything is a mirror.

But… there's distortion with that.

Just because something is being illuminated doesn't mean there's something wrong. This is where mirror duality comes in.

We've been taught to look at mirrors as evidence of what's happening inside of us. If something triggers you, it means there's something to heal. If a pattern shows up in your external reality, it must still exist somewhere in your internal reality. If someone reflects an old version of you back to you, you must still have more of it to work through. If someone else is attracting chaos, you must also be attracting it because you're with that person.

But that's only one side of the mirror…

Sometimes, the mirror is showing you what is no longer true.

When something shows up in your external reality, you don't necessarily have to ask, "Where am I still doing this?"

Sometimes the question is, "Who am I now in relationship to this?"... which is a completely different question.

My daughter saying that something terrible could happen after something exciting didn't necessarily mean the universe was showing me another wound I needed to dig into.

It showed me a pattern I know intimately.

I KNOW that woman…

...the version of me who couldn't fully relax into something good because she was waiting for what it would cost her… who expected the other shoe to drop… who believed expansion would eventually require contraction to balance it out… who would receive something she desperately wanted and almost immediately start looking for the next problem…

…but I don't have to become that version of me again just because I recognized that pattern.

That's the other side of the mirror.

I can see the old pattern reflected in front of me and hold the identity I have now.

I can hear my daughter say something batshit like, "Even if I have to go to the hospital afterwards," and instead of spiraling into guilt about what I passed down to her or immediately searching myself for another layer that needs healed, I can simply respond:

"No. You're allowed to have the good thing. You're allowed to be excited about the sleepover, have an amazing night, come home tomorrow, and have another amazing day. Nothing has to go wrong to make up for something going right."

And maybe that's the healing happening in real time.

For a while I thought I'd let my kids down because I didn't alchemize every single subconscious pattern before they were born…

But life was never about achieving some mythical level of healing where nothing uncomfortable is ever mirrored back to us again.

When you're constantly over-analyzing your life and the situations that show up like, "Why did I manifest this? What's wrong with me? What limiting belief caused this?" - that's another form of hypervigilance, and it's taking you out of your life.

Instead, when situations come up that trigger you and you see yourself in them, ask yourself: "What is this experience allowing me to see about myself that I couldn't see without the contrast?"

Sometimes the answer is a wound.

Sometimes it's a boundary.

Sometimes it's desire.

Sometimes it's an identity you've outgrown.

Sometimes the mirror is showing you your shadow.

And sometimes, the mirror is showing you your mastery.

You watch someone respond to something the way you would have responded 2 years ago and suddenly realize, "Holy shit. I don't do that anymore."

That's still a mirror.

It isn't reflecting the shadows or the pain anymore though… it's showing you who you stopped being.

It's reflecting the proof of all the work you've done.

The person who inspires you can be a mirror… and the person who annoys the absolute shit out of you can be a mirror.

The opportunity that drops into your lap can be a mirror… and the business ideas that refuse to work can be a mirror.

Old patterns coming back around can be a mirror, because you finally get to encounter the same energetic theme from a different identity.

Your only job at this point is to stop making these reflections mean you still have further to go… because what if it's coming back around to show you the duality? To show you just how far you've come? To show you the proof that the healing work has actually worked?

Your life can actually be LIVED FULLY when you're able to recognize the pattern when it appears without collapsing back into it again.

Sometimes these mirrors are here to invite you to notice how differently you respond to something you've already healed.

We're constantly being given the opportunity to hold the new identity we've claimed.

There was a time when simply recognizing this pattern wouldn't have been enough.

I could have told you exactly where it came from, why I did it, what belief was underneath it, and probably traced it all the way back to childhood… and still found myself living it.

Recognizing the pattern and actually becoming someone who no longer collapses back into it are two very different things.

There is an entire process between "Holy shit, I do this" and being able to stand in front of the exact same pattern without becoming it again. The 12 Stages of Healing describe the process your nervous system moves through as something goes from unconscious pattern… to awareness… to healing… to integration… to eventually becoming something you can recognize without collapsing back into.

And that's the work inside of Uncapped Capacity… learning how to actually move through what's there, instead of endlessly searching for the next thing that's wrong with you. You become the version of you who can recognize an old pattern and realize:

Holy shit. This doesn't control me anymore.

If you know exactly what your patterns are, where they came from, and why you have them… but you’re still repeating them, you don’t need more pattern recognition.

That’s why I created Uncapped Capacity.

Inside, you'll move through the 12 Stages of Healing on a somatic level - so your body actually believes you. You'll work with your patterns across the subconscious mind, nervous system, emotions, energy, and physical body so you can stop being pulled back into patterns you already know you’ve outgrown.

You already know why you do what you do... now it’s time to actually change it.

Explore Uncapped Capacity here. 

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